I feel so stupid.
So ugly.
So un-adorable.
So idiotic.

Cause, I finally broke down in front of him.
Why did that have to happen.

Everything was fine. Thou deep down I know it wasn't.

That hurt will come sooner or later..
Can it be later?
Can i avoid it?

No matter how much I pretend to be smiling again,
it's still there.
the pain.

I will try to be strong.
I'll be good. I promise.